| Oh the tiredness |
[Aug. 6th, 2008|09:35 am] |
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WOW I am wiped out today. It hit yesterday evening, basically the moment Spouse walked in the door. I guess I just overdid it a bit and my insomnia finally caught up with me. I did my best and went to sleep super early (compared to when I have been going to bed), but still woke up at 2am and dozed on and off until J woke for a feeding at 3:30am. After taking care of her, I took a half a melatonin and fell back asleep. J woke again, just briefly around 6 or 6:30 and feel back asleep after a minute or two, but it woke me right up. I dosed until 7:30.
Trivial, menial, creative things I'd like to do today:
-fold the damn laundry
-tidy a bit
-shower
-diaper laundry
-bring check and posters to the Video Library for the Admit Two mom&baby movie tomorrow (wow, did I procrastinate on this one!)
-long walk with the little lady
-knit (might have to frog a bit of the sleeve I just started)
Memory:
I am not a fan of waking in the middle of the night and stumbling down the hall to feed the little grrrl, but once I'm there and everything is silent it is so lovely. She just lies quietly on my lap, gulping away, half asleep, while her hands softly touch my face, neck, shoulder, breast. She is discovering that she is separate from me and it's sad and exciting. Then, when she's finished, I put her up on my shoulder and she just molds to me all warm and soft and safe. It is one of the few times I get to just hold her. Normally, during waking hours she's like a greased pig, twisting and turning and squealing. I will miss these times when they're gone. |
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